- 6.10. 13 It tickles me that you have to spend at least $20 to get that -natural- look . . .
- Facebook is a performance art venue
- 6.1.13...what if we taught preventative care of the mind body and soul starting from early childhood, as part of the curriculum, as contextualized in the curriculum, as THE curriculum?...\
- 6.1.13 linear is the new post-non-linear
- 5.26.13 Grasping the ungraspable
- 5.9.13 A best friend is someone who enables and empowers you to be your best.
- 5.8.13 When you seek validation from others, you start to abuse the self-2.3.13 Dance Artists are Body poets
Sunday, March 22, 2015
The slighter insights-- the FB Collection Series
Monday, February 2, 2015
Harvesting the Dream 1/30/15
It has been some time now. It seems I have been in a cocoon, what happened? A shift happened.
In any case, that is neither here nor there...
I would like to write about some dreamy harvests from this weekend's dream group. I have not kept up with them, seems like I have been hibernating, or something of that sort . . .
In any case, again, that is neither here nor there, nevertheless, I'm gonna be honest, let me just say this once, and so on an so forth . . .
Some things that came up in dream group this time around:
Kathy mentioned the idea of boredom or tiredness, that we have to be aware when, during the discussion of a dream, we get tired or bored or start falling asleep. This is not irrelevant and does not happen for no reason. Boredom is not insignificant. Everything is significant, relevant. We have chosen to enter a space of the dream group, and therefore, anything that we do in the space has a relevance to it. When one's attention shifts away from what is going on, there is resistance somewhere. The mind, subconsciously, is shifting away because it cannot process and does not want to go into that territory. Dream group, like contact improvisation, is a microcosm of what occurs in the broader world, with that being said, it allows one to make connections and to bring these cultivated nuggets of learning to gain more perspective and understanding into the world. I realize that I do this when I am not ready to process something that is said or being asked of me. It is a way to divert and to stall and avoid exposing myself to whatever is uncomfortable. I sometimes will pick up the conversation or give an answer weeks later. I realize, it is not so much about cognitive processing time, but an emotional processing time. One will go there when they are ready, that's it. This is important. My question is: why not go there right away? What are the barriers that get in the way to being connected and not to try to divert away?
I also started to make connections to teaching, my students "get distracted" and start to divert the class elsewhere, for example, by asking random questions. This is probably due to some sort of uncomfortableness that is taking place. They are vulnerable or feel exposed.
What I take from this is an awareness of: things happening when they are ready to happen. If you are not ready to hear something, you won't. If the muscle is not ready to soften, it won't, etc etc. I would like to set the intention of being aware when these moments happen with myself and with others. To be kind, curious and open to them. If I see it manifest for others, to not force but to hold space and meet people where they are at, since they will not go anywhere [emotionally] if they are not ready.
Something else that came up was the idea of being taken over by the "parent" archetype and the complexities of being a parent. Parents do and say things that are unlike themselves outside of being a parent. They seem to be run by, almost possessed, by the parent archetype. And as Kathy pointed out, one cannot fight an archetype. The Parent archetype is: judgmental, controlling. The role of the mother: black & white mode of seeing the world. It is something that is internalized. Instead of being present in the exploration, there is an anxiety that comes into the mix. It is a tide that takes over and one must have awareness so that it doesn't take over. For me, I feel the act of being a parent is the most direct choice one can undertake. I think life is malleable and one can be mindful about everything and work around things, but to make a choice of parenthood is a black and white choice, the way I see it, no wonder that it lends itself to the modes of being mentioned above.
Some other access codes:
-tapping into masculine energy
-awareness- and awareness of not being aware
-awareness: slowing down, patient
-when is it clear to leave something and when is it not
-We also talked this time about the feel of the dream versus just describing it, less analytical, more experiential. Experience the dream versus reading it. This time the dreamer read the dream and then explained it again without looking at the notes. I could see how this would provide two different experiences of exposing the dream.
-dreams tell you what you already know-
In any case, that is neither here nor there...
I would like to write about some dreamy harvests from this weekend's dream group. I have not kept up with them, seems like I have been hibernating, or something of that sort . . .
In any case, again, that is neither here nor there, nevertheless, I'm gonna be honest, let me just say this once, and so on an so forth . . .
Some things that came up in dream group this time around:
Kathy mentioned the idea of boredom or tiredness, that we have to be aware when, during the discussion of a dream, we get tired or bored or start falling asleep. This is not irrelevant and does not happen for no reason. Boredom is not insignificant. Everything is significant, relevant. We have chosen to enter a space of the dream group, and therefore, anything that we do in the space has a relevance to it. When one's attention shifts away from what is going on, there is resistance somewhere. The mind, subconsciously, is shifting away because it cannot process and does not want to go into that territory. Dream group, like contact improvisation, is a microcosm of what occurs in the broader world, with that being said, it allows one to make connections and to bring these cultivated nuggets of learning to gain more perspective and understanding into the world. I realize that I do this when I am not ready to process something that is said or being asked of me. It is a way to divert and to stall and avoid exposing myself to whatever is uncomfortable. I sometimes will pick up the conversation or give an answer weeks later. I realize, it is not so much about cognitive processing time, but an emotional processing time. One will go there when they are ready, that's it. This is important. My question is: why not go there right away? What are the barriers that get in the way to being connected and not to try to divert away?
I also started to make connections to teaching, my students "get distracted" and start to divert the class elsewhere, for example, by asking random questions. This is probably due to some sort of uncomfortableness that is taking place. They are vulnerable or feel exposed.
What I take from this is an awareness of: things happening when they are ready to happen. If you are not ready to hear something, you won't. If the muscle is not ready to soften, it won't, etc etc. I would like to set the intention of being aware when these moments happen with myself and with others. To be kind, curious and open to them. If I see it manifest for others, to not force but to hold space and meet people where they are at, since they will not go anywhere [emotionally] if they are not ready.
Something else that came up was the idea of being taken over by the "parent" archetype and the complexities of being a parent. Parents do and say things that are unlike themselves outside of being a parent. They seem to be run by, almost possessed, by the parent archetype. And as Kathy pointed out, one cannot fight an archetype. The Parent archetype is: judgmental, controlling. The role of the mother: black & white mode of seeing the world. It is something that is internalized. Instead of being present in the exploration, there is an anxiety that comes into the mix. It is a tide that takes over and one must have awareness so that it doesn't take over. For me, I feel the act of being a parent is the most direct choice one can undertake. I think life is malleable and one can be mindful about everything and work around things, but to make a choice of parenthood is a black and white choice, the way I see it, no wonder that it lends itself to the modes of being mentioned above.
Some other access codes:
-tapping into masculine energy
-awareness- and awareness of not being aware
-awareness: slowing down, patient
-when is it clear to leave something and when is it not
-We also talked this time about the feel of the dream versus just describing it, less analytical, more experiential. Experience the dream versus reading it. This time the dreamer read the dream and then explained it again without looking at the notes. I could see how this would provide two different experiences of exposing the dream.
-dreams tell you what you already know-
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
range of spectrum
range of the spectrum
parts of the pieces
slice of the whole pie
micro and macro
be open to all of the possibilities
the part of you that is . . .
seeing 24 hour-ness in people- when live together in an enclosed space, rarely get to see people like that, do not even see friends like that.
parts of the pieces
slice of the whole pie
micro and macro
be open to all of the possibilities
the part of you that is . . .
seeing 24 hour-ness in people- when live together in an enclosed space, rarely get to see people like that, do not even see friends like that.
access codes
Leading to Epiphany
"the work"
balance- everyone's idea of balance is relative-- concentric circles, affinities
opposites
listening
listening to bugs- they are sharing secrets
breathing
bringing hands to heart center
softening
letting go of fascia
writing
outlets
yoga, movement, doodles
range of spectrum
parts of selves
concentric circles of selves
listening to what some is saying to you is a reflection of themselves/own investigations
be open to all of the possibilities
3/22/15
-what are you letting live in the world?
-you are responsible for the whole world.
-kindness
10/3/2016
closing eyes
"the work"
balance- everyone's idea of balance is relative-- concentric circles, affinities
opposites
listening
listening to bugs- they are sharing secrets
breathing
bringing hands to heart center
softening
letting go of fascia
writing
outlets
yoga, movement, doodles
range of spectrum
parts of selves
concentric circles of selves
listening to what some is saying to you is a reflection of themselves/own investigations
be open to all of the possibilities
3/22/15
-what are you letting live in the world?
-you are responsible for the whole world.
-kindness
10/3/2016
closing eyes
Harvesting the Dream
it has been a while since i have written about dream group. whenever i mention the dream group, people are very intrigued, i take it for granted because i am lucky enough to go, but when i hear the reactions of others, it reminds me how lucky we are to be a part of it. i realize that there are so many slight insights that are cultivated, and that inspired me to harvest and share the sustenance. below are things that are shared outloud by dreamers or 'if-it-were-my-dream'--ers, kathy, or thoughts that come up to me as i day dream about the dreams.
- ~everything in your dream is an inner experience, all the people/situations/emotions/etc in your dream are aspects of you
- what showed up in the dream is a gift
- when you do not know something, we go directly to: "I can't" versus "I don't know how yet"
- -> mindfulness
- it is time to express yourself
- drop the idea that you need to make a masterpiece, you already are, cannot be improved, just come to it
- leave it to the universe to put it together not from forcing (swim and dance in the unknown)
- I put all my genius into my life; I put only my talent into my works. Oscar Wilde (1854-1900)
- 'embrace differences', differences are not better or worse. Differences are seen as in conflict - but not . . .
- BOOK: "The Goddesss is in Every Woman"
Wednesday, July 16, 2014
On making a piece
I was commissioned by my students to make a piece. the only reason i would say no is due to fear, which was not a good enough excuse. so i followed my fear and decided to see what would happen if i. below are the cultivated insights:
What I was interested in, the initial tether as impetus for creative process:
Interested in bringing my interests/questions into the process- theory into practice
(in rereading this 7 months later 2/2/15, I am reminded that is a constant life practice, a meditation)
What I was interested in, the initial tether as impetus for creative process:
Interested in bringing my interests/questions into the process- theory into practice
Resolving people's fear- following your fear-- as a dancer, performer, and/or human...using the stage as a venue for resolving fear.
My fears, playing with mine as the process in the process and mixing w the company's
Standing on edge of now and seeking what comes next, scary but that becomes the medium
Collaboration, open space to suggest- accept and deny
We build it together from the language that is set up ) company class and score
Theory into practice--so many classes taken in improv and composition, but I have never really utilized them in a compositional context- myself being the artist. i have used the tasks in class for teaching purposes, but never for creating purposes. I wanted to put trust in the process and see where it would take me.
Edge of now- using Doug verone's methods and trying not to judge, interested in using the new methods to see how to do that and what that looks like
Using Paul's partnering tools for superhuman people dancing- trust circle 2.0
Doing things that tickle me
what we/I did:
Free write curiosity and fear- 3 minutes on each subject
what we/I did:
Free write curiosity and fear- 3 minutes on each subject
Sharing the writings
You not you dances- improvised and choreographed
superYou dances- what does your super You look life
superYou dances- what does your super You look life
What I learned:
Habits patterns, my patterns
there is a point in the process where i want to abandon ship, the censor/saboteur takes over and just wants to quit... this time i realized that this is a familiar feeling, albeit not very pleasant, but i was able to be aware that it was present, but not take it too seriously. It is a very strong feeling, but it's just a feeling.
Yet again: that we are all just waiting for permission. the dancers will go there with you if you set up the space. they were asking: "Now what?" "what do we do next" (this eventually was an impetus for parts of the text)
there is a point in the process where i want to abandon ship, the censor/saboteur takes over and just wants to quit... this time i realized that this is a familiar feeling, albeit not very pleasant, but i was able to be aware that it was present, but not take it too seriously. It is a very strong feeling, but it's just a feeling.
Yet again: that we are all just waiting for permission. the dancers will go there with you if you set up the space. they were asking: "Now what?" "what do we do next" (this eventually was an impetus for parts of the text)
R talking to W about it being part of the dance (see notes from journal)
Everyone is standing at the edge of now, all together, all connected. No one knows what is going to happen next, that is what makes us so connected. no matter what we do or who we are we are all connected by the fact that we do not know what is coming next. and although we have set up things in the present for the future, we really do not have an idea of what will happen-- we cannot foresee unforeseeable circumstances and we also cannot foresee how others are going to react to what we set up. In this case it teaches to be open to possibilities, and it makes sense why people attempt to control everything-- because we have no control. This was a practice of letting go and seeing what happens next. To trust. To trust the process to trust the dancers/artists/collaborators and myself.
Everyone is standing at the edge of now, all together, all connected. No one knows what is going to happen next, that is what makes us so connected. no matter what we do or who we are we are all connected by the fact that we do not know what is coming next. and although we have set up things in the present for the future, we really do not have an idea of what will happen-- we cannot foresee unforeseeable circumstances and we also cannot foresee how others are going to react to what we set up. In this case it teaches to be open to possibilities, and it makes sense why people attempt to control everything-- because we have no control. This was a practice of letting go and seeing what happens next. To trust. To trust the process to trust the dancers/artists/collaborators and myself.
(in rereading this 7 months later 2/2/15, I am reminded that is a constant life practice, a meditation)
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