a letter from Sadness

Dear Rada,

this is your sadness writing you a love note. I am around you and hovering over you in a sad cloud above your head, behind your eyes and in the lining of your heart. Don't be worried. I'm only visiting for a short time. I'm here to remind you to see more and feel more - and come back to yourself. I'm here to give you perspective. and although you feel it in your core, this will pass and another feeling will come sweep you off your feet. We are all thinking about you. and care about you. Just be, just feel, be aware of it all and smile at it because it exists and you exist. and you get an opportunity this time around, the only time to create magic and magical things. Please be kind to me. Do not be angry.  I need love, yes I said it without pride, with armor down. disarmed. Take me on a date one day. I am coming from many directions to you. breathe for me and find the groundedness to hold me in the space, I am a powerful source, but so are you. I love you.

yours,

Sadness

My resolve, today

Today, I resolve not to be scared. It's a waste of my time. ...Daily practice...

(Thank you, Bjork and all of her counterparts)

"We Kept it STRICTLY SPIRITUAL"

my prayer book: Ellen Langer's Mindfulness and The Power of Mindful Learning

my Sunday morning mass: Contact Improvisation Jam

EARTHDANCE excavations

Open heart discover and cultivate

Sub culture of dancers and non dancers

Felt like a girl and scared

Earthdance 12/29

Stranger in a strange land, new experiences, new energies, novel, navigating newness

At first: judgy mnt... Self preservation, broad strokes turn to more subtle inspections, challenges your way of being when dorming w others,  

Leskidi island

Intentional community

Dance is a social currency

Holding space- what r u holding space for 

I love watching you dance

Women's circle 

You don't know unless you really do it, can't talk shit unless do it 

I came here to remember

Forget to remember

Leonard Cohen on reading a poem

Contact improv is really not fun if you have gas/constipation/bloating/need to go poop, it can be a score, but not really fun 

Even at these gatherings, we are playing a role, a role to be earthdancy, but it's all our hats, what are you not showing? If you seem like you are showing everything still, what are you not showing...

I want more

(Tears)

I feel that I don't hold space to love the way I want, give love the way I want 

You are beautiful tshirt 

I wonder if you are ever matched in the way that you dance/are

Barefoot boogie 

Tshirt:

Tell me how awesome i am?

You are beautiful

Taylor Mali poem 

Dance camp

Ian

More!

Gender, cruising

Metaphor explore the metaphor of contact to life, To relationships

Brian: your spirit does not match your wedge. You are alive and not where you are at

Levi: your dancing  like I wonder if you ever found your match and what that would look

Finding an energy that you like and going to it and sitting with it, play with it and go away from the one that you don't want at that time

No use of feeling neg of any kind, do the change if can or let go, learn and move on-forward 

Hold space for the positivity

Black elk speaks

weapon of choice

Everything from love, everything with love.

When I go to battle, my weapon of choice will be cupid's bow and arrow.

love

Love is a meditation practice.

functional fairy dust

I would like to post this in the thought capsule to remind me of people who are spreading beautiful functional magical thoughts:

http://www.chicagogrid.com/careers/necessarily-experience-job-alinea/

Highlights:

"hard working, honest, and curious"

 " To me, the most important quality a person can have is to be intellectually curious — that way they can learn on the job."

"So we’re constantly searching for highly qualified people — and yes, we look at everything, but in the end it’s personality."

"Hire very smart people and allow them to be smart. Let them question practices and offer solutions."



--like I say: personality is your biggest asset!