It has been some time now. It seems I have been in a cocoon, what happened? A shift happened.
In any case, that is neither here nor there...
I would like to write about some dreamy harvests from this weekend's dream group. I have not kept up with them, seems like I have been hibernating, or something of that sort . . .
In any case, again, that is neither here nor there, nevertheless, I'm gonna be honest, let me just say this once, and so on an so forth . . .
Some things that came up in dream group this time around:
Kathy mentioned the idea of boredom or tiredness, that we have to be aware when, during the discussion of a dream, we get tired or bored or start falling asleep. This is not irrelevant and does not happen for no reason. Boredom is not insignificant. Everything is significant, relevant. We have chosen to enter a space of the dream group, and therefore, anything that we do in the space has a relevance to it. When one's attention shifts away from what is going on, there is resistance somewhere. The mind, subconsciously, is shifting away because it cannot process and does not want to go into that territory. Dream group, like contact improvisation, is a microcosm of what occurs in the broader world, with that being said, it allows one to make connections and to bring these cultivated nuggets of learning to gain more perspective and understanding into the world. I realize that I do this when I am not ready to process something that is said or being asked of me. It is a way to divert and to stall and avoid exposing myself to whatever is uncomfortable. I sometimes will pick up the conversation or give an answer weeks later. I realize, it is not so much about cognitive processing time, but an emotional processing time. One will go there when they are ready, that's it. This is important. My question is: why not go there right away? What are the barriers that get in the way to being connected and not to try to divert away?
I also started to make connections to teaching, my students "get distracted" and start to divert the class elsewhere, for example, by asking random questions. This is probably due to some sort of uncomfortableness that is taking place. They are vulnerable or feel exposed.
What I take from this is an awareness of: things happening when they are ready to happen. If you are not ready to hear something, you won't. If the muscle is not ready to soften, it won't, etc etc. I would like to set the intention of being aware when these moments happen with myself and with others. To be kind, curious and open to them. If I see it manifest for others, to not force but to hold space and meet people where they are at, since they will not go anywhere [emotionally] if they are not ready.
Something else that came up was the idea of being taken over by the "parent" archetype and the complexities of being a parent. Parents do and say things that are unlike themselves outside of being a parent. They seem to be run by, almost possessed, by the parent archetype. And as Kathy pointed out, one cannot fight an archetype. The Parent archetype is: judgmental, controlling. The role of the mother: black & white mode of seeing the world. It is something that is internalized. Instead of being present in the exploration, there is an anxiety that comes into the mix. It is a tide that takes over and one must have awareness so that it doesn't take over. For me, I feel the act of being a parent is the most direct choice one can undertake. I think life is malleable and one can be mindful about everything and work around things, but to make a choice of parenthood is a black and white choice, the way I see it, no wonder that it lends itself to the modes of being mentioned above.
Some other access codes:
-tapping into masculine energy
-awareness- and awareness of not being aware
-awareness: slowing down, patient
-when is it clear to leave something and when is it not
-We also talked this time about the feel of the dream versus
just describing it, less analytical, more experiential. Experience the
dream versus reading it. This time the dreamer read the dream and then explained it again without looking at the notes. I could see how this would
provide two different experiences of exposing the dream.
-dreams tell you what you already know-
